I’ll just get straight to the point.
I’ve been struggling with this a lot lately. This season in life, that is. Really beginning to settle professionally, confident in my routine. No children yet. Maintaining our little starter home, but forever wanting more space. The desire for my husband and I to spend more time together and serve others in our community, but no weekends to spare with our crazy work schedules.
As I approach 30, I can’t help but reflect on the events of my life that have lead me to this point, and sometimes wonder what it will take for contentment to fill my heart.
I don’t know what it’s going to take for the “contentment feeling” to happen. But, I do know this. 1) the Lord is my home. 2) God meets me where I am – which is usually in my messy house, in our overgrown yard, in my laundry room, and sometimes in the grocery store. Sometimes it’s when I’m in the middle of a crisis at work, and sometimes it’s when I am exhausted from going all day and am trying to find the energy to pack our lunches for the next day. My God is there, and he speaks little truths to me through mundane activities like washing my face and watering my plant that is barely surviving, yet continues to sprout.
Through this season, I will Praise God. In my joy, I will praise Him. In my restlessness, I will praise Him. Despite not having a regular routine to attend church every Sunday (which is draining), my worship to God and his goodness has never been more deep and present than what it has been this year.
I heard this once, and it’s literally changed my life. Preach the gospel to yourself every day. Start your mornings with truth and meditate on those things. Our feelings change based on circumstances throughout the day, so know in your heart what is true. Know what comes from love and what comes from Satan. Simple, right?
“Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good….” (Psalm 34:8) – Do both. Can you do one without the other? Meditate and consume His word until you’re digesting truth and can truly see goodness despite circumstance.
“Your words were found, and I ate them, and your words became to me a joy and the delight of my heart…” (Jeremiah 15:16)
I have been repeating truths to myself on the way to work before my day starts (almost) every day over the past few months, and I can’t even begin to tell you how the Lord has been building my prayer life. I do this before anything even has a chance to go wrong. Before I spill coffee on my pants while I’m driving, before I talk to any of my co-workers, and sometimes before I even get out of the shower. This is how my eyes stay focused on Jesus, because I need Him. All day, every second, and if I don’t prepare my mind with love before I go out in the world, I might as well go back home.
He pursues me with goodness and mercy (Psalm 23:6)
He fights for us (Exodus 14:14)
No good thing does He withhold (Psalm 84:11)
Great is our reward in heaven (Luke 6:23)
He gives strength to the weak (Isaiah 40:29)
He supplies ALL of our needs (Philippians 4:19)
All things work together for our good (Romans 8:28)
He prospers me (Jeremiah 29:11)
Nothing can separate me from the love of God (Romans 8:38-39)
He is with me wherever I go (Joshua 1:9)
He knows and gives me the desires of my heart (Psalm 37:4)
No, I don’t always remember every single one of these references, but these promises are poured out to my heart as a daily reminder of God’s goodness in my life, and it has been life changing to speak them, write them in my notes, stick them on post-its in the car, and refer back to them when I need them.
Don’t let Satan rob you of your joy while you’re unsure, or not quite content with exactly where you’re at in life (or where you thought you’d be by now).
When I feel overwhelmed, I’m immediately reminded of the love that suffered the cross. My earthly problems are met with the sweet arms of Jesus at the end of my long days and a husband who points my eyes upward. I am abundantly blessed and beyond grateful for these daily reminders of Christ’s love.
If I could choose a theme for our 2017, I think it would be Steadfast Provision. His provision of joy through hard things, and also joy through happiness have been evident in our lives this year.
Thanks for reading, friends. I’ve really been wanting to share something a bit more personal, and this has been on my heart. Looking forward to sharing more with you all when the time is right.